So I just discovered that I have not posted on my beloved blog since February of this year. That's six months. Six months is a long time. Let me just say that I could share a million excuses. But the truth is that when you spend 12+ hours a day staring at a computer screen, researching, drafting, emailing-- whatever -- it is hard to come home at night and blog.
But here we are. It's August. And I have left big law.
I admit, I am a little sad to see it go -- to say good-bye. In my short time at my last firm, I made some really great friends. I got to try all sorts of new things. I was given increasing levels of responsibility. And people seemed to like my work. I even managed some pretty successful actions and developed real client relationships. It's everything a girl could want in big law.
And that was my problem.
Even the best of us with families - those of us who really, truly wanted to put our families first - were limited in our ability to do so. Because to be part of a culture where client service comes first, that often means that work has to come before family. Not if you have a family emergency. And in my practice group, everyone was very supportive of my role as a mother in addition to being an attorney. But, truth be told, money isn't everything. And so, while I was well compensated, I felt like I was never present. Even when I was home, it wasn't present. I left super bowl games to work. I worked on Mother's Day. And Father's Day. I missed school events and activities. I skipped out on parts of Halloween trick-or-treating. (Though, to the firm's credit, when I went on vacation I had a real, honest, no-contact-with-work vacation.) Much of that was probably my "choice." But when you are driven to do excellent work you have to push through.
So I left. Jason took a job as a senior software engineer-- and my amazing husband was able to get a job that is treating him as if he basically has been working for these past two years in the industry.
I took a job at a local law school, where I am directing their Academic Success program and teaching courses as an adjunct professor. It is totally up my alley. I'm only two weeks in, but I love it already.
And thought I actually think it will be more difficult in many ways to balance/juggle work and home-- before I could (and did) just check out from family life, it also means I will be more present. And I am looking forward to that.
And to having time and energy (and things about which) to blog.
So I'm home. I hope you will tune in to follow me again . . .